Don’t Leave ‘Em Asking…

Last night I dreamed I had “The Cancer”. I’m pretty sure it was because I was watching The Shootist before I went to sleep. But I woke thinking, how do people deal with knowing they are dying? John Wayne played a guy who was dying of cancer, while he himself was dying from cancer. Joey Feek was dying of cancer. Everyday she fought it. Did she wake up every morning wondering why? Why she woke up? Why she was still there? She pushed though every single day, and played with her daughter. She sang to her, she smiled at her. She was incredible. Joey is in Heaven I’m sure of it. God bless her. God bless Rory. They have an incredible testimony. Only a short life together, but full for Jesus. Joey will have a hefty crown to lay at His feet and what a beautiful addition to the Heavenly Choir.

So, in truth, I would love nothing more than for Jesus to just come take us all at the same time. But there is so much work to be done here before that can happen. Too many people are still trying to fight battles alone and turning to things that don't make any sense. To live a life that really doesn't have a purpose except to gain their own pleasure is such a waste of time. And, to be honest, if any of my children have to go before me, I'd have to be proud of them for living their lives in a way that I know for sure was centered on God and growing His kingdom. I would be empty in so many ways, but I'd be full knowing they had done their work here and were able to move on.

Sometimes people don't get to realize their worth on earth before they leave it. I don't have answers to the why's of those situations. I am sorry for the sufferings of those left behind that are full of questions and hurt. I've seen it. I still see it. It's so hard to know what to do or say. You just want to make them feel better, but that's really not what they want. They need to grieve and express their anger and frustrations. Sometimes they lash out at the ones they love. Maybe that's because they know they'll be forgiven for it in the end. Maybe it's because they want someone to hurt as bad as they do so they know they aren't suffering alone...It's hard to see the rest of the world going on as usual when theirs is in limbo. Or at a standstill.

..."Miss M'lynn, 'should make you feel alot better that Shelby is with her King."

"Yes, Annelle, I guess it should."

"We should all be rejoicing."

"Well you go on ahead. I'm sorry if I don't feel like it, I guess I'm a little selfish. I'd rather have her HERE."

"Ms. M'lynn, I don't mean to upset you by saying that. Its just that, when something like this happens I pray very hard to make heads or tails of it...... she went on to a place where she could be a Guardian Angel. She will always be young. She will always be beautiful. And I personally feel much safer knowin' that she's up there on my side. It may sound real simple and stupid, and maybe I am, but that's how I get through things like this.