Darkness Lurking

I'm a failure. I can't do this anymore, it's not worth it and I'm not good at it anyway. I'm really not good at anything so what's the point of continuing to try...

Stop trying. Quit getting up every time you fall. Give in.

Give in to the battle and take the easy way out. Don't keep pushing. Why bother. You aren't special and no one really cares anyway. You're forgotten. Old, broken, worn-out. Forgettable.

Crawl in to your dark place and rest there. It's quiet and you'll not be bothered because no one will notice. You're alone anyway so that's the place for you. Nobody understands you. You'll never fit in anywhere. Don't even think about it. Does anybody really love you anyway, really? You're mean and no body wants to be around you.

That's what Satan tries to tell me.

When everything seems to go wrong. As hard as I try, I just can't straighten things out. Spill the coffee, burn the eggs, run into the door...Do you have those days? Probably yours are even worse. Maybe there are deeper, darker thoughts for you. Does Satan constantly badger you with his chatter?

Satan is a liar.

I can't fail when God is in control. He's on my side and when I call to Him, He not only hears me, He's there. He knows what I need before I do.

I can't stop. He not only pushes me, He picks me up when I fall and carries me when I can't go on any longer. When I don't think I have one more step in me, He gives me rest. He brings me peace.

My Savior proves to me that I am loved. My God redeems me. He showers me with His blessings and comforts me with His presence. I am never alone.

He hears my cries, and answers my pleas. He loves me more than I can fathom. He wants me to be with Him forever! So much so, He had Jesus die so that I can. He longs for me to come to Him!

Can you relate? Do you know these truths in your life? Can you feel the joy that God gives?

Bad days, dark times, losses and rejections make me stronger. They help me call on my King to pull me out of those times where I just want to crumble in a heap and be broken. Those times I want to scream out and claw myself to feel a different pain. The moments where I ask why. Why can't it be easier! Why can't it just be done. Over. Finished. Can't I just be through...

I can sit in His presence and feel Him cry with me. His heart breaks when mine does. He catches me when I fall. Those days I free-fall into His arms as I completely give in to Him, He gladly picks me up, cradles my head to His chest and gently walks along with me until I'm stronger. My strength comes from Him as He whispers truths to me.

He reminds me who I am and that I am HIS!

I am loved, cherished, created for Him to be loved. He took time to create me. He knew exactly what He wanted me to be. He doesn't make mistakes...I am strong. I am perfect. I will continue to get up! I am never forgotten. I will go on!

I can hardly wait to cast my crown at His feet. My joy will NOT be contained on that day; my heart races at the thought. I'll not be able to wait in line at the Pearly Gates while St. Peter checks for my name, No Sir. I will run my best race. I won't contain my praises and I'll shout, "Hallelujah!" to the hills! My dancing will not cease and my arms will not tire from reaching high!

Until I see His face, I will-not-stop calling out for His light.
And He will never stop answering.

Get close to Him today.